Since last year the first vacation that I sign up for every year, are two days for my birthday . It is lovely to have an extra long weekend, and even more pleasant to be gone from work. Love it! So the weekend has finally arrived. Not that I am eager to get older, but 4 amazing days to do whatever I want! (almost) With all the grim circumstances included, I am going to try to make it as brilliant as possible!
I have been gone for way too long from my little beloved blog, so sorry! I am exhausted after work, there is still a wave of hate coming in my direction there. I am very slowly learning not to care at all, but rather to concentrate on all the other people. Uni has been no less stressfull. I had a very much treaded appointement with an Uni professor yesterday to revisit my paper on the movie Downfall. He handed it back to me yesterday to overwork it. He doesnt like my writing style, he didnt like what I wrote (34 pages, no less!) and just the usual things that he sais to most of his students. Most of us dont take any classes from him, but with my work schedule, his seminar was the only one this semester that didnt collide with work. He is dreadful, with very little respect for anyone, other than “his” student prodigees. He is eager to redicule, put us down and tell us we are stupid, too stupid for our own good. I am sure every Uni has professors like this. It is messing with my head for now, but I will manage.
As promised, here are a lot of the photos I took on this awesome autumn walk with Emma. I might just head there again this weekend, the weather is lovely outside!
All Saints Day came and passed, my Moms Birthday came and passed, everything DOES pass. It is a constant miracle how the head can make a living hell out of everything until you manage to change the view of perception, or switch the camera position to film from a different angle. I figured, that I am collecting way too much sorrow and suffering over the course of a delivery day and this is what is pulling me down. People hardly ever share the good, only the bad. And as we as mail carriers are just always there, infront of the door, sometime even inside, with all the mail and packages… whom to tell than us? I am trying hard to set limits, it isnt good for me to hear all the gory details of this and that… I am also trying to no longer be a grave stone in my free time. People just load their problems onto me, like there is no tomorrow. So for this weekend, I have decided to NOT meet up with a friend, because I dont feel any better after listening none-stop for hours. And it is my birthday , so I get to do what I decide. ๐
Because I still have money left that I received from people in my delivery area for Christmas last year, I treated myself to the new Kindle Voyage. The difference to the Paperwhite one is immense and I absolutely love the possibility to read with one hand as they finally included a better “turn page” option. Looooooooooove it! It is very well worth saving for!
Last week I went to the dermatology clinic again for my control appointement. The last time the professor said that swimming is way better than inline skating, because it is much less dangerous. This time he suggested that I definitely need to stop swimming as all of the chlorine is much too hard on my skin. I cant say bad about the doctors, because I really do get special treatment at that hospital! But one just has to wonder. I know he is right though, the water is absolutely not good for my skin. But swimming is so good for my soul! And who knows how long I can still go swimming! Not much else was discussed. For now the therapy continues at is has been for the last 6 month: immune suppressants combined with oral steroids, allergy pills, (steroid) lotions and hyposensibilisation. All there is really!
Emma got her hair cut this past week, she looks amazing! They really did well this time!
Luise and I went to see the theater play Measuring The World. I am now convinced that the book by Daniel Kehlmann doesnt work on the stage at all, nor did it work as a movie. Some books should just keep untouched! I also was at the meeting of the astronomers again, because Walter had a presentation. Compared to the universe, where everything happens in timeframes that are just unimagineable for our little braines, a human life, all of our human lifes, are not even a sandcorn in the big picture. Speaking of the universe, how amazing has the landing been of Philae!?!
Brother and I are working on our living space. There is still so much from my parents around that needs to go. What a horribly long process grieving is. We are going to get out the Christmas Decoration this weekend and not soon until I want to bake the first Christmas Cookies of the season! Tomorrow I am going to head to our Christkindl Markt to buy our Adventkranz! Must concentrate on the good, nothing else should matter!
And with that, I leave you again but I promise, I will be back much sooner than last time. LOTS OF LOVE! Celebrate life and living, always and all ways!
4:57 am on November 21st, 2014
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIE!!!! Wishing you only good & happy things!
9:52 am on November 21st, 2014
@Lucy: THANK YOU dearest Lucy! For you too, as always!
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