I so much cannot wait for Friday. I am so horribly unmotivated. It is awful to get out of bed, it is even worse to go to work, and even worse again, to know that the rest of the week is going to be as awful as today. My group leader saw me today, and told me to not look as if I am suffering.

Today and tomorrow I had/have to pull the trolley (thanks Fiona for the word!) for someone. I cannot tell you how stupid that is, and how much I dont want to have to do that.

I have used the last resorts of my energy over the last few weeks. It is tedious to move around, to climb steps and what do I know. I broke down under the trolley today. I just dont have the strength anymore. I am an energy bunny normally!

I really want to know how much I have walked over the last 3 months. One area is about 10 kilometers long. Then I want to know how many stairs I have climbed. Thousand plus? How many letters, packages and alike I have had in my hand? Many many many.

My goup leader must realize how stupid that is to pull the trolley for someone, because she asked me if I will return next summer anyway…

Please time pass fast.