Today was such an horrible day. Why oh why????

The presentation of my translation at Uni went as bad as it can get. Or rather: the person who reacted to my translation, started with the sentence: “you have grave errors in wording”, this doesnt sound so bad in english, but in german it sounds really bad “schwere sprachliche Fehler”. Total knockout. From then on I fighted to not lose my composure completely. She was totally unsympathetic. I cant tell you how bad it was, it was horrific. I got home and cried and cried and cried. Totally devastated. I still dont think my translation was bad at all, but apparently I am too stupid anyway. Professor didnt say a thing. If I wouldnt be so close to a degree, I would stop Uni alltogether. I dont think my Ego can take much more of this. I was always proud of my English. I build my self esteem from my strengths. But my strengths are not really strengths apparently. I must recover from this.

Two hours before this, I had a fight with someone at work. He said such hurtful things that I ended up screaming at him for being such an asshole. Unfortunately this was one of the few people I trusted at work and who I told more than the usual blahblah. He said he was just joking, but nope, he definitely wasnt, I know him that well. You just cant trust anyone. At one point or another, they will hurt you and honestly, this is not worth it. So tell me: WHO CAN YOU TRUST????? Who will not hurt you????

Today, I am really sad and at a loss of everything really. Lots and lots of broken fragments that need to be picked up. At a point. Not today.