Which pet is it? I dont think you can tell. It doesnt look like its supposed too, and I have no idea why. Oh well.

The walls have fallen on my head the last couple of days, multiple times. This week I would have loved to work, but they didnt call. I know its typical, but still. Hopefully I can at least work on the 24th. I will find out tomorrow or Friday. I CANT STAND IT AT HOME!!!

We are still discussing the possibility of a tree. I dont think we need one really, nor does my brother. A useless waste of money. Maybe a little one? The holidays will be tough. A friend asked me how much a person can live through (love problems!). A LOT, let me tell you.

If we cannot reschedule my 5 weeks “wellness”, I am going to cancel, which will be one of the more severe bad decisions I have made so far. Noone can understand it, but at this point I cant stand the thought of being gone 5 weeks. Let alone that there is a medical exam in the beginning, and lots of touching in between. I cannot be touched!

I want to get drunk, or drug myself crazy. I find it impossible to stay in myself these days. The constant itching doesnt help. so messed up To make it worse, I cant seem to find sleep these days.

This too shall pass,