Do you know that state where you try everything to make yourself feel better, and nothing works? Everything that once felt good, feels like nothing now. I didnt know how happy I was when I was so unhappy, until now.

People dont know what they have. I swear. I didnt know. Who cares about boyfriends, divorce, whatever. At least they are here! You can see them, touch them, talk to them. 🙁

As sick as my Mom was, I never thought she would die. What an unrealistic thought. Moms arent supposed to die, and not that young, either. I feel like an alien. I dont know anyone in real life, who isnt like A LOT older, who can relate.

I am dreading things that I used to love. Her birthday, my birthday, Christmas.

If we had proof that there is a spirit world, would we all kill ourselves?