My Dad passed away this afternoon.
He was home, I was with him, I stroked him and talked to him all the way through it. According to the doctor, who was incredible nice and explained us really everything, not like with my Mom, said that his circulation has come to a standstill, as a consequence his heart stopped, and because of that, he couldnt and cant resume his life like we know it. He also said, that we all should hope to pass away like my Dad has, without suffering. Thank you God.
His health had declined over the last few days, but never in my life had I thought of this, he has survived so much, but as another doctor said “his time has just run out”.
I was able to witness something, that gives me so much peace! When my Dad “collapsed”, he sat on a chair, and while he cramped, he suddenly started to smile, it was a huge smile, I havent seen that in so long (!) and he pointed to a spot, or as you put your hand forward to take someone elses hand. It was amazing. As if suddenly someone had appeared that he hadnt seen in a long time. I think I knew my Dad well enough to interpret his face. It was amazing.
It hasnt hit me yet. I have yet to cry. Please make the next few days, weeks and months bearable.
12:02 am on March 22nd, 2007
*hugz* remember you still have good friends and love one if you ever need to talk about it, and cry if you want…. i will cry w/you.
12:58 am on March 22nd, 2007
I haven’t been anything but a lurker before, but I wanted to offer my condolences. I can’t imagine watching a parent die and I think being shocked right now is understandable. I wish you luck. =)
4:52 am on March 22nd, 2007
Yes, it’s okay to cry *comforts* I’m here if you need anything.
6:04 am on March 22nd, 2007
*HUGS* That was a beautiful post Connie about the unimaginable. My heart & prayers & tears are with you & your family. I am so very sorry.
May your Dad rest in peace.
2:45 pm on March 22nd, 2007
connie, heute morgen vor der arbeit habe ich das gelesen und so einige male im laufe des tages an dich gedacht! es tut mir so leid! ich bin aber froh, dass du das sterben deines dads so erleben konntest, wie du es erlebst hast. ein ähnliches erlebnis hatte ich mit meiner großmutter damals. es ist schwer zu beschreiben, aber es hat was beruhigendes. die trauer bleibt, aber nicht so sehr die angst vor dem, was danach kommen mag.. ich denk an dich!
3:46 pm on March 22nd, 2007
Zuerst möchte ich sagen, dass es mir leid tut, dass dein Dad gestorben ist.
Du darfst soviel weinen wie du magst oder auch nicht, wenn du nicht kannst.
Dein Vater hat ganz sicher jemanden gesehen, der ihm schon voraus gegangen ist, ev. deine Mutter.
Ich bin in dem Glauben aufgewachsen, dass die Toten, die man gern hatten, einen abholen, wenn man selber stirbt – und ich freue mich für dich, dass du diese Erfahrung miterleben durftest. (Wenn es auch etwas blöd ist hier von Freude zu sprechen, entschuldigung.)
Ich sehe das als Erleichterung an und bin auch froh, dass dein Vater ohne grosse Schmerzen gehen durfte.
Meine Gedanken sind bei dir.
4:21 pm on March 22nd, 2007
I’m so sorry, Connie. I wish there was something I can say, but I can’t possibly imagine what you’re going through. My thoughts and condolences are with you and your family.
10:57 pm on March 22nd, 2007
(((connie))) ich weiss grad gar nicht, was ich sagen soll/kann, da ich grad nicht die passenden worte finde. aber ich finde es sehr schön, dass du hier deine gedanken so offen schreiben kannst und dass du ihn bis zum schluss begleiten konntest.
ich denke an dich.
5:41 am on March 23rd, 2007
I´m so sorry Connie. Too long I wasn´t here and I felt I needed to stop here just to say hi and see how everything was going on with you and your family. I never thought I was going to be here in such a sad situation.
As Linda and the others told you, we are here in case you need us.
I wish we could be there with you to give you a big hug and only to be with you.
*BIG HUGS*
8:36 am on March 23rd, 2007
Oh Connie, I am really so, so sorry that I’ve only just seen this 🙁 *huge hugs*.
Your post made me cry – it was beautiful.
But as others have said, it is ok to cry, if you ever want to talk then feel free to message me.
🙁 🙂 *hugs*
1:28 pm on March 23rd, 2007
Ich hab es gerade erst gelesen…
((Connie))
Ich wünsche Dir viel Kraft für die Zukunft und dein Leben….
**thinking of you**
Jutta
6:46 pm on March 24th, 2007
I’m so sorry. My deepest condolences.
He’s blessed, though, that he didn’t suffer. And I’m sure he saw his entire family in the “light” who are long gone.
6:15 pm on March 26th, 2007
Oh Connie I am so sorry, I know he was so sick for some time. I wonder too if he was heartbroken over your mom’s passing. Your in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. Love ya babe. *hugs*
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