I just saw that much dreaded suspended page again when I tried to load my site. Yikes! I really do need to declutter my page, its collecting so much spam and other evil things. Hmmm. So little time.

Todays lecture was canceled. Usually I check my Uni-email like mad for notices of illness and alike, but today I didnt, of course. Had another lovely chat, it really was lovely, but I know too much again, and some details I would have gladly missed. Someone dying of lung cancer, and its just a tragic story. Old couples, that have spent their whole life together. I dont know how life works. Why is it given to us. You work your whole life to get a house, and when you have everything, your life is taken away again. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT. All I can think about is death again. And the sentence from House, MD there is no dignity in death. Someone turn my brain off, pretty please.

I feel like I carry the whole world on my shoulders *slightly exaggerated*, and my brother certainly isnt helping. How he can justify it to himself to take all my money AGAIN and to still scream at me constantly, I do not know. But this is nothing I can tolerate any longer. Especially as he is sickening nice to his girlfriend. Why am I burdened with an aggressive, unwilling to work brother, I do not know. Another mystery of life.

To make everything worse I am running out of eyes. Oh no! How should I make turtles without eyes, that doesnt work! I had to order a bunch (60 to be exact, which are enough for 30 turtles, obviously). I could embroider them. But that doesnt look as nice…

Steroids are a miracle. Evil, but a miracle. You really only notice how much they work when you stop taking them. Bad bad itching.

Labpet had some movement, but I forgot to post all of it. This is the most recent one. I think I had that one already. I promise more positive entries again tomorrow. I normally wouldnt post at all in this mood, but I had to: NaBloPoMo!