I had an entry written yesterday, but it was a bit angry, so I didn´t publish it. Wanted to write something later, but got sick, so here I am now, about 12 hours later.

I never did understand the difference between a journal and a weblog. But I think that I am not made for both. I am modifying my behaviour by the input that I get, which is mad, because this is my site and I should be able to write here what I want.

This thought then brought me to the topic, what a Weblog for us is. So what is it? I think, it is THE place, where we can write down our thoughts, without having have to worry at all. I don´t appreciate it when info that I write here, is used against me in any form, or if some people think just because its the internet, they can write rude guestbook entries critisizing ones personality.

Which then led me to the solution, that I really shouldn´t have a Weblog, if things like these bother me.

Is this a quiet agreement that we bloggers have? I suppose a lot of us blog for ourselves. We accept that we need a place to vent away, without being critisized or what do I know. WE understand this, but others dont.

I like journal places, like Xanga (and all the other places), because the people there are just fellow journalers like oneself. They understand the silent agreement that we have.

Or maybe I am just going mad now once and for all. But things like this bother me. I want people to accept me like I am. If this is how I choose to live and be, accept it. Real life is hard enough, don´t take away my space on the internet.

Argh, lack of sleep is getting to me.