Today brought so many questions and memories. So much self pity and denial. So many why us and so many what ifs.
I cannot comprehend it, still. Such an absurd thought.
This year seemed endless, and yet like it was just this very day. And to think, now it starts all over again. Her birthday, my birthday, Christmas… So glad when it was over last year, and now all again. Cant think too far ahead, it is all too overwhelming.
The pain in my heart and the longing for her is unbearable. Brutal. Indescribable pain.
Again, trips to various webpages, for proof or rather certainty that there is life after death, and that this is not the end. Nothing that brought me any peace.
Today, I long to be with her, so very badly.
On The 6th Day Of November
Trip To Obersalzberg
My „Spooky“ October 2018
Lucy
Connie
7:55 pm on July 26th, 2006
I am so sorry it’s a “bad” day for ya Connie. I hope tomorrow when you wake up you have a “better” day. I know your pain, not directly related to your specific situation but I know the pain of loss, why me, what ifs, I think I deal with them all on a daily basis. It’s hard. But, keep you chin up, see what tomorrow brings sweetie. *hugs* 4 U across the many miles. ➡
4:36 am on July 27th, 2006
Peace to you Connie. I still see the picture that you found of the both of you in my minds eye & it makes me smile.
I spent the last 2 days with my aunt & it was so strange that my mother wasn’t there too & yet she was. It’s like my brain lives in 2 dimensions at once.
9:54 am on July 27th, 2006
*hugs* I hope you manage to find peace Connie, I can’t think of what to say, but I’m here, and I’m proud of you 🙂
Der Schatten des Windes