I was not able to come up with a turtle today, that reflected my mood. Tired, lost, cold, lost, depressed, lost… Thinking of it, lost would have been a pretty accurate choice, but how to pixel a lost turtle, there would be nothing left. Oh that irony. Seems my emotions mirror a neverending vulcan eruption. Maybe tomorrow I will pixel a turtle that is covered in stones and ashes, left with nothing but her insane mind.
At Uni, where I bought a cool “glow in the dark turtle sticker” today, *thinking I should have gotten two*, the post office called. My friend said “if I would be serious about Uni, I would not even consider it”. But what is right and what is wong, and more important, what do I want? Seems I have lost more than just the obvious. I need a miracle. And someone please tell me WHAT SHOULD I DO?
On other news, I found a cool Scarf Pattern, but I bought the wrong wool, a simple garter stitch scarf it will be then.
Maybe I need therapy again, or maybe I should just skip it and go straight into a mental institution. 🙄
10:59 pm on October 18th, 2006
Sorry you’re feeling so rough Connie *big hugs* Do you have anyone you could talk to about this? Maybe if you write it down and email me…I’d do my very very best to help.
The turtle sticker sounds really cool, can you buy one tomorrow?
To me, it seems like you hate work, maybe if you gave uni a try. You can say no Connie, you can, they’ll just mistreat you again…
Finally, you’re a really lovely person, you’re not mad xxx
11:14 pm on October 18th, 2006
PS – Just emailed you at your Turtelina Gmail address
PPS – Did you ever try and find “An Equal Music” by Vikram Seth?
12:00 am on October 19th, 2006
So sorry Connie, I know what it is like to be so un-knowing about your life. I personally think Uni is a great idea but it might be tough right now for you. Maybe too much to handle? I don’t know. Your work is also hard on you but do you feel more comfortable there right now. It takes time to figure these things out sweetie. I know. I have found that I can only do what feels good to me now adays. Otherwise I will break down completely. Maybe therapy is a good idea. I myself can’t seem to find any therapist to help me at all. Ugh. Hang in there, we care, we all care about you sweetie. *hugs* from across the many miles.
7:58 am on October 19th, 2006
*big hugs*
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