// boring entry ahead! I am dreading November. It is probably the hardest month of all, packed with so many memories, it always makes my heart and soul hurt and against that barely anything helps. Turtles and fun Tshirts can only do that much really. No one in the hospital can understand why I have bunnies and a dog when I am so allergic against them. I always tell them that I need them for my soul. They dont understand it.

Tomorrow I have to work. There is no mail on Saturdays but the newspapers need to be delivered and since I have that horrible contract now I need every extra hour I can get. Sleeping in doesnt pay our bills.

In the afternoon I am going to the theater with two friends of mine. We are going to watch Goethes Faust. It is supposed to be really good and its culture. I feel so intellectual already!

I am delivering mail in the local army base these days. I obviously am not allowed to take photos in there, otherwise I would have already posted one! I wanted to join the army for the longest time but since being in there… its really depressing. No wonder people go mad in there. I feel horrible for the psychiatrist who went on the shooting rampage yesterday. How low must he have fallen to go out and kill so many people. Let alone the people who were hurt and killed. Being at the wrong place at the wrong time? Destiny or coincidence? So much to think about.

Life is weird.