My Dad passed away this afternoon.

He was home, I was with him, I stroked him and talked to him all the way through it. According to the doctor, who was incredible nice and explained us really everything, not like with my Mom, said that his circulation has come to a standstill, as a consequence his heart stopped, and because of that, he couldnt and cant resume his life like we know it. He also said, that we all should hope to pass away like my Dad has, without suffering. Thank you God.

His health had declined over the last few days, but never in my life had I thought of this, he has survived so much, but as another doctor said “his time has just run out”.

I was able to witness something, that gives me so much peace! When my Dad “collapsed”, he sat on a chair, and while he cramped, he suddenly started to smile, it was a huge smile, I havent seen that in so long (!) and he pointed to a spot, or as you put your hand forward to take someone elses hand. It was amazing. As if suddenly someone had appeared that he hadnt seen in a long time. I think I knew my Dad well enough to interpret his face. It was amazing.

It hasnt hit me yet. I have yet to cry. Please make the next few days, weeks and months bearable.