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This Is Just Not Worth It

Today was such an horrible day. Why oh why????

The presentation of my translation at Uni went as bad as it can get. Or rather: the person who reacted to my translation, started with the sentence: “you have grave errors in wording”, this doesnt sound so bad in english, but in german it sounds really bad “schwere sprachliche Fehler”. Total knockout. From then on I fighted to not lose my composure completely. She was totally unsympathetic. I cant tell you how bad it was, it was horrific. I got home and cried and cried and cried. Totally devastated. I still dont think my translation was bad at all, but apparently I am too stupid anyway. Professor didnt say a thing. If I wouldnt be so close to a degree, I would stop Uni alltogether. I dont think my Ego can take much more of this. I was always proud of my English. I build my self esteem from my strengths. But my strengths are not really strengths apparently. I must recover from this.

Two hours before this, I had a fight with someone at work. He said such hurtful things that I ended up screaming at him for being such an asshole. Unfortunately this was one of the few people I trusted at work and who I told more than the usual blahblah. He said he was just joking, but nope, he definitely wasnt, I know him that well. You just cant trust anyone. At one point or another, they will hurt you and honestly, this is not worth it. So tell me: WHO CAN YOU TRUST????? Who will not hurt you????

Today, I am really sad and at a loss of everything really. Lots and lots of broken fragments that need to be picked up. At a point. Not today.

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3 Responses to “This Is Just Not Worth It”

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    1:28 am on December 1st, 2016

    So ein Scheiss!
    Wem du vertrauen kannst? Ganz einfach: DIR und NUR dir.

    Dein Englisch ist wunderbar und das weisst du auch – lass dich bloss nicht klein machen und komm bloss nicht mit der Ich-bin-nichts-wert-Nummer – die sind nichts wert und falls sie fehlerfrei sind, sollen sie es beweisen. Ich bin sicher, dass da kein grave wording war und schon gar nicht in hohem Mass!
    Was war das für eine?

    Nix da – Uni wird auf keinen Fall geschmissen!

    (((drück dich))) :knuddeln:

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    3:40 am on December 1st, 2016

    Geez!!!! :hugblinkie:

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    5:34 am on December 19th, 2016

    Just watched The Sound of Music on tv & thought of you!!! Merry Christmas to you & yours Connie!!!!

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