We are still decluttering heavily. The house is a huge mess, there are huge garbage bags piled up everwhere and its really only the beginning. We want it all gone asap but at the same time it is SO HARD to throw away a life of memories. You just cannot understand it until you have been there and we are at this point at least 30 years too soon. It doesnt help at all, but the why us always manages to pop up. Nobody has it easy and everywhere bad things are happening, but I would have gladly skipped out on this for a long while to come. 🙁 Oh well.

I found really old things again while throwing things out, I love them! I will make photos of them very soon. I love old things. ➡

On good news, I have American Apple Pie in the oven:

I am actually quite positive, but once you start to write things down you notice that there is just a negative “side” to it all that you dont realize in everyday life because you are trying so hard to function normally…

At least we have fixed things at the cemetary. Well, we didnt really, but flower shops across town offer services to keep graves nice and clean, it just costs a fortune. I am so grateful they offer this, we are incapable of going there let alone work on the graveside. They would be so disappointed if they knew.

The control at the skin outpatient clinic for my severe, chronic and therapy resistent atopical ekzema was disenchanting if thats the right choice of words. I am just having a bunch of side effects because of these pills and they keep piling up. I always say Ciclosporin is a pack with the devil. You get fairly good skin but for a very high prize. So I am taking multiple pills for the pills now. 😕 But at least they help, some, not enough according to my doctor, but they help. They should make the ekzema about 75% better, otherwise you should terminate because the risk for infections, loss of kidney function and what do I know is just too high, the bad outweighs the good.

There really is not much more to tell about the last two weeks. I am very sorry for the negativity, as soon as I have better things to report, I will post it so that this entry is gone from the front page. I want positivity, this negativeness is dragging everyone down and its not worth it.

Oh: I loved the season premiere of House, Vampire diaries is INSANE, I didnt like the first episode of Glee too much. Rachel just looks so much older this season. 🙁