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Das Verschwinden des Josef

by Olivier Guez

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The Doom Of Anniversaries

Obviously there are good anniversaries and bad ones. The past few days seem to have been full with both. Lets start with the good one, one which I have missed. Happiest Birthday Turtelina.net! This domain celebrated its birthday on July 16th! I think at least. 🙂 It is like a punischment for you to have to look at my awful drawings now, I cannot draw. But good enough. 😀

Then it was one year since I had the IUD put in, wohooo! Can anyone decipher what this sais? And another year since my Mom passed away… 🙁 Rotten. I cannot even remember the day, but I think it was yesterday.

On Friday, I went for my 6th De-Sensibilisation-Shot. There were so few people and the waiting room was totally empty:

But Silvia was there and I know she kept looking at me. I didnt look at her, but given the emotional vulnerability I am in these days, it totally set me off. Damn it. Despite sleeping pills I barely slept this past night. It was not nice. I am still clinging to her emotionally. Oh well. Maybe I am not only doing a de-sensibilisation against dust bunnies but against Silvia as well.

I got up really early and started to draw away. I think I was inspired by a quote from Oscar Wilde which is quoted in one of my alltime favourite books: The Night Circus… it would be a brilliant theme for a new layout for my blog, if I can pull it off, which I doubt. I drew it with pencil first and then tried to digitize it:

The past week was rather unexciting. Wehee! Went and bought this brilliant book: 1913 The Summe Before The Storm, met up with Eva, made more jam and we went inline skating three times.

Yesterday we bought an Enzian. Actually I wanted to get a Ruccola Salat Plant but as they didnt have it, we bought this instead. I wonder if it will bloom… also Cassandra Fortuna blooms even more this week! This plant is definitely a survivor:

I need to get away soon. I will definitely apply for Reha sooner than later and hope that they will send me to Jordania rather than Israel this time… Brother is in such a rotten mood and he doesnt even bother to not let me feel it too, full force.

Emma sends a dog kiss, she too is sweating like a pig in this awful hot and humid weather:

Life life life. Exhausting. But also adventurous and fun. At least sometimes. I am fighting. As always. Have a very good week you all. Lets move up not down this week. 😉 Have a good one. ➡ ➡ ➡

2 Responses to “The Doom Of Anniversaries”

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    6:15 am on July 28th, 2014

    Happy Birthday Turtelina.net! Refreshing as those summer drinks might look…one of them looks like it’s packing some pretty serious calories! Stay cool Connie & Emma!

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    9:15 am on July 28th, 2014

    Happy Birthday gorgeous *huge hugs*

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