Obviously there are good anniversaries and bad ones. The past few days seem to have been full with both. Lets start with the good one, one which I have missed. Happiest Birthday Turtelina.net! This domain celebrated its birthday on July 16th! I think at least. 🙂 It is like a punischment for you to have to look at my awful drawings now, I cannot draw. But good enough. 😀

Then it was one year since I had the IUD put in, wohooo! Can anyone decipher what this sais? And another year since my Mom passed away… 🙁 Rotten. I cannot even remember the day, but I think it was yesterday.

On Friday, I went for my 6th De-Sensibilisation-Shot. There were so few people and the waiting room was totally empty:

But Silvia was there and I know she kept looking at me. I didnt look at her, but given the emotional vulnerability I am in these days, it totally set me off. Damn it. Despite sleeping pills I barely slept this past night. It was not nice. I am still clinging to her emotionally. Oh well. Maybe I am not only doing a de-sensibilisation against dust bunnies but against Silvia as well.

I got up really early and started to draw away. I think I was inspired by a quote from Oscar Wilde which is quoted in one of my alltime favourite books: The Night Circus… it would be a brilliant theme for a new layout for my blog, if I can pull it off, which I doubt. I drew it with pencil first and then tried to digitize it:

The past week was rather unexciting. Wehee! Went and bought this brilliant book: 1913 The Summe Before The Storm, met up with Eva, made more jam and we went inline skating three times.



Yesterday we bought an Enzian. Actually I wanted to get a Ruccola Salat Plant but as they didnt have it, we bought this instead. I wonder if it will bloom… also Cassandra Fortuna blooms even more this week! This plant is definitely a survivor:



I need to get away soon. I will definitely apply for Reha sooner than later and hope that they will send me to Jordania rather than Israel this time… Brother is in such a rotten mood and he doesnt even bother to not let me feel it too, full force.

Emma sends a dog kiss, she too is sweating like a pig in this awful hot and humid weather:

Life life life. Exhausting. But also adventurous and fun. At least sometimes. I am fighting. As always. Have a very good week you all. Lets move up not down this week. 😉 Have a good one. ➡ ➡ ➡