Easter came, Easter went… *peekaboo*

I had a nice weekend: good food, sleeping, reading, swimming… and over it was. So glad I am off work this week. Not that I am doing anything fantastic, but I can sleep in, have good breakfasts, read and do some necessary things at home. I should urgently write Uni-papers, but I cant motivate myself all the time either. Less and less really, I am burned out once again. Once you are burned out, I dont think you can ever really recover from it. As soon as you are in the same situation, the whole thing is repeating itself. Oh well. I have four days left for papers. I need to rewrite one, and write one. There are still two more papers in the queue, but two would be a good start.

These days I am lazy as hell and I am not happy. Sitting around is not for me. Wanted to meet up with a friend for the zoo, but she is pregnant again and doesnt want to risk anything in the first trimester. I am really happy for her, she did so much for me! But it makes me feel terribly lonely in so many ways, which I dont want to elaborate, as I am not sure who all is reading this. I need to become more active, meet new people. I am so anti-social, which is a bit hindering when needing to meet more people. Oh well! I have another vacation coming up in May, so even if I mess up this one, I can make it up in May. 😀

April weather is insane! Sunshine, pouring rain and massive snow!

Situation at work is very tense. So much work, long days and another delivery-area-adjustment just around the corner: which means more cuts. They are insane! It gets harder and harder to manage it as I feel like I am not getting any healthier. They are still completely ignoring my 60% disability status saying there arent and will never be work places for disabled people at the Austrian Postal Service. Nice. I am trying to have as little contact with people at work as possible. So many there have nothing better to do than speak ill of others and I just dont want to bothered with this.



Which brings me to the book by Ruth Klüger that I just finished: Still Alive. The same things that we have to deal with now, happend in the concentration camps as well. Can you imagine? I am learning more and more that there are certain basic structures in live, that keep repeating itself. Not always in the same degree, thank God. As sad as it is. I think the book was quite good. Klüger writes without much emotion, which leaves it open for the reader to make up ones mind about what happened. I feel its one of the better books about the Shoah. Now I am reading Magellan by Stefan Zweig, about the explorer Magellan. Its awful. I am so close before putting it away for good.

I am having lots of fun baking these days. I came across Cupcake Jemmas YouTube Channel a while ago, she makes everything look so easy that I want to bake it all! Today I made her version of Scones and they were absolutely delicious:

I need to throw the past out of my head: IT IS GONE. I keep thinking about missed chances, useless! I need to get my act together and use every single day. I feel like I am the only person who is so far behind in life. But I just possibly cannot be. I need to exersize more, study more, work less (aehm…) and meet people! Happyness is an active state not something that just happens.

3 days until Britains Got Talent and 4 days until Game Of Thrones. I will be back. Be happy everyone!