Instead of going to Poetry Slam with Eva, I decided to make Apple Caramel Jam instead. I have found my love for making jam. So whatever fruit is on sale, will be made into (hopefully) delicious jam instead. This week we made: Apple Caramel Jam, and it is so good. It tastes a lot like apple sauce, but better. This morning I made buttermilk scones and we had a very nice and good breakfast:

We have so many apples left, that I will try Apple Honey Jam a bit later.

This week, and I think this will go until past Christmas I am afraid, we continued to have so much mail. With so many ads that were so very heavy. And parcels like there is no tomorrow:

An absolute nightmare, you just cannot get done in 8.5 hours. 😡 Good thing that I have no time anymore to make this 30 minutes break, because there is a guy very stubbornly stalking me. He wants to go fo a drink, which would be fantastic! Unfortunatly, he is dead drunk already at noon 💡 and probably nearing 50. Being that drunk at noon only means that this is another person who cannot deal with life. I think he just wants someone he can talk to, as they all want. I told him I am not interested, but he could come and find me and then we can talk. Good God! But I felt so sorry for him. My pity for others will be another gravestone of mine.

As Halloween is nearing, I put up our Halloween Decoration:

Plus we made Pumpkin Soup, so very good:



Not too much sewing, as my depressive episode continues… but I made a little medication bag and another pencil case:



I have been laying on the sofy, mostly. Watching the big showdown of Six Feet Under which really didnt improve my mood. Such an intense series, with a billion of emotions packed into it.

To top my increasingly horrendous skin, I sklipped on stone stairs on Friday during work, and had the hardest fall ever. I saw stars for a while and got horribly sick. I really thought there was no chance I could get up anymore. That hurt. Still hurts. Cant sit, cant stand, cant walk… not what I needed at all.

Met up with Eva this week at my favourite Coffee House:

She is totally into Poetry Slam these days… will go with her in two weeks to the Austrian Finals. We will also go to a theatre play by a hobby theatre group at the end of the month. She has some of her self-written stories published into a book soon, she is so excited! Very much deserved. 🙂

I have another appointement with the doctor in chief of the dermatology clinic this week, if he is in, to discuss the course of action. As long as we are doing something and not wait on until God knows when…

People keep asking if he has contacted me by now… no, he hasnt. And noone can understand it. I am in the process of trying to move on. But it is a real shame and just a total waste.

“Ja, ohne Zweifel würde auch dieser Schmerz, auch diese bittere Not alt und müde werden, auch “ihn” würde “sie” vergessen. Nichts hatte Bestand, auch nicht das Leid.” — Hermann Hesse

Have a very good week dearies. no matter how awful life gets, remember to make the best even out of the misery that life brings. I am watching Wonder Years these days. Havent seen it since forever! I love the idea of an adult looking back on his earlier years, and finding the sense in everything that happened to him and around him. Wonderful messages! And one that I certainly didnt appreciate when I was a kid. ➡ ➡