This past week was dominated by my Apes In Literature presentation. I dont think I have ever spent so much time on a presentation before. I feel that the pressure to achieve in seminars is extremly high. There are good students sitting in this one with me, and I absolutely didnt want to fail. I had prepared so much, I could have presented the full 90 minutes easily. BUT as things go, professor wasnt here on the day of presentation, “only” his assistants and they wanted me to get done in 15 minutues (!) and 15 minutes discussion then it was somebody elses turn. So I only got to read my headlines basically. :0 Bad luck. But the assistants were really helpful. We decided that the thesis that I should go after in my Bachelor Paper should rest upon the freedom aspect on Kafkas ape Rotpeter. I think this should be doable and I need to start as soon as possible, before all the information in my head is gone. Only need to talk to professor first.

And then right after this one, I can start on the other Bachelor Paper which is on Tristan and Isolde, I dont even know the topic, I know I wrote it down SOMEWHERE. I am not too much a fan of old german literature. Eeeeeew. Inbetween I have this horrific and huge latin exam. Yikes, double yikes, triple yikes. So much Uni stuff to do. 😀 And all this while Emma is sleeping for all of us. On my pillows here though, huge NONO!

This has not been a good week healthwise. I need to discuss this with the professor at the dermatology clinic and hope for a solution. Speaking of health, met the obgyn again. They got a postalcar full of parcels on Tuesday, almost. I guess he is sticking to the informal you. But as I dont plan to go to his practice again anytime soon, it should be ok. 🙂 I got chocolates and 10 Euros from him for Christmas and New Year! 🙂



Which brings me, with the other money that I received this past week, to almost a thousand Euros: Good Lord.

Not too much else this past week. I am a bit exhausted mentally. I think all things are adding up and I dont have any resources left. On top this workweek was quite a challenge with someone in my delivery area cursing me and wishing me the worst and a collegue who is very challenging. As a consequence in both cases, I try to set limits now. I cannot go with all my heart and soul around anymore. I am setting up borders. Work collegue can talk as negative as she wants, as long as she talks about herself only and not include me anymore. I need to do my work only, nothing more. I am not a therapist or scapegoat for anyone. Difficult it is. Need to learn from it. I wanted a therapy session on Monday to discuss this, but my intervertebral discs are bothering me a lot since Friday. If they are it, I am not sure. It could be an inflammation in the lower areas as well. Whatever it is, I didnt get around to making an appointement.

BUT: we got a new postal car vehicle for testing! I am so glad that I dont have to be the one driving around in it:

I am enoying reading about The Warrior Cats. Very easy and light reading, but very enjoyable. I will never be able to look at cats as before. Recommended for lets turn head off reading. 😀

There is another delivery area adjustement happening at work soon. I am afraid I might lose people that I dont want to lose. If only I could influence it.

I would go on a one-week-vacation soon, but vacation would only mean staying at home with brother 24 hours a day, just like during summer vacation, which in the end is more exhausting and nerve wrecking than work itself.

Need to go and look for the thermometer. I have heat attacks. Stay as happy as possible you all! Until next week. <3<3